Cheese Eating Surrender Monkeys

A few years ago, when the French refused to participate in one of our fun foreign wars,

the comedian, Dennis Miller took to calling them :

“Cheese Eating Surrender Monkeys”.

I really hate that phrase because it belittles an entire culture.

Clearly, he is missing the point of the French Way of Life.

In America, we just want to get through life.

In France (and most of Europe, as well)

the goal is to savor life.

Let’s do a simple comparison and see how the French

live in comparison to Americans.

In America we love efficiency

The French love beauty.


We communicate with e-mail

the French chat over espresso at a cafe


We gobble our food at fast food places.

The French savor a meal over several hours


We like bargains

the French love quality


We worship celebrity

the French worship art


We believe more is more

The French believe less is more


We buy fake flowers

The French visit markets every day for fresh flowers


We like new and shiny

the French prefer old with patina


We like our desserts BIG.

The French love theirs, small, beautiful and delicious


On Sundays, we go to malls….

 The French stand in line to get into the Louvre


We work 40-60-80 hours per week

They rest each afternoon


We get a couple of weeks vacation

They vacation for the entire month of August


At lunch we run errands

they read a book  or picnic by the Seine


In Summer, we drive hours to get to the beach.

They bring the beach to Paris


Paris Plages..

they bring sand to make a beach every summer on the Seine

These are just a few of our differences.

I know it’s fashionable to dismiss the French and many other cultures,

because they are not us!

But honestly, there are so many wonderful things about the way other people live.

I can only assume people who dismiss them are either jealous or grossly misinformed.

There is a lot about life in our country that is good.

Our freedom alone makes everything worthwhile.

But life here is frenzied.

We didn’t get this far in 240 years by being lazy slackers.

We are movers and shakers.

We zip through our lives at “mach 2 with our hair on fire”.

But, in doing so, we have sacrificed many things that disappear at high speed…

Including the view all around us

It wouldn’t hurt to slow down a bit, enjoy our lives and all the beauty .

It wouldn’t hurt to take a page from someone else’s book and learn how to “savor” life.

We could learn a lot from other cultures.

Maybe then we could have the best of every thing life has to offer.

It’s just a thought.

Take a little time to consider it.


For much of my youth

PEACE was a sign,


a decorative design on earrings,

a rally,

a reason to march,

a two finger greeting


something that seemed unlikely in Vietnam.

For many years,

I truly believed the world would find Peace.

If we marched enough, cared enough and did enough,

I thought we could change every thing.

But it didn’t happen that way.

In my mind,

Peace was a global state of existence.

I didn’t understand it as a state of mind,

heart and being for each of us

as individuals.

One day I started to look at it differently.

Instead of creating peace externally,

it needed to begin within  us.

I realized the seeds were already there.

I needed to find a way to tap into it.

It came over time and not without effort.

In large part, it was connected to letting go of my fear.

When you chip away at your fear,

Peace can enter through the cracks.

It can transform you and become your steady center.

When that happens,

you feel differently about others, as well.

It’s then that we stop judging and ridiculing others,

persecuting them and denying their struggles.

When Peace enters your heart,

it fills you with acceptance , compassion, and gratitude.

Only then, can anything really change.

Now, after all these years I know Peace is not the absence of war .

It’s not retreating from the world.

It’s the ability to feel quiet & peaceful while the craziness swirls around us.

Don’t wait for Peace to come to the world.

Seek it out and cultivate it in your own heart and soul.

Help others find it.

Be an instrument of Peace,

in your little corner of the world.

Only then will we ever have a chance for Peace in the world.

We must all play a part in it’s creation.


The Extinction of Elegance


I’m sorry to report that Elegance is fading….. into oblivion.

Am I the only person upset by this distressing turn of events?

The current generation seems to have based its entire identity on

Big Boobs, Big Asses & Grotesquely plumped lips .

Sexy is Big.

Trashy is Big.

Outrageous is Big.

The Kardashians are Big.


Not so much!


When I was growing up,

these women were elegant;

Their style was timeless and

influenced an entire generation.


Jacqueline Kennedy


Audrey Hepburn


Grace Kelly

There were many more women who were elegant in many walks of life,

but I chose these three because

they have always epitomized elegance to me personally.

They were not without their flaws. But being flawed is merely  being human.

Their beauty was a part of it, of course.

But more than that; it was their style,

their talent,

their uniqueness,

their fluidity,

the way they moved, the way they spoke.

They had

“that certain something”,

an indefinable quality,

or as the French call it:

“Je ne sais quoi”

The Free Dictionary defines elegance  as

“refinement, grace, beauty in movement, appearance and manners”.

Our  current culture is besotted with celebrity and outrageousness.

We find it difficult to recognize or enjoy anything subtle, simple or quiet;

Elegance is not just a fashion term.

It goes far beyond that.

It’s knowing who you are and being true to that; in a quiet way.

It’s living your life with grace, in grace..

Maybe the time for such things has passed.

Perhaps Elegance has no place in the world today.

But I believe the world would be a better place if more of it existed.

Politeness, kindness, good manners,

respect, intelligent speech and considerate behavior ……

are no longer valued by society in general.

Today,the middle finger says it all.

No need for other forms of communication.

We have gained so much in the past fifty years in terms of technology,

but we have lost so much of our humanity.

We’re polluting our planet, hunting and killing our animals to the brink of extinction.

We’re killing each other and we’re filled with hatred and intolerance.

We have become a disposable society .

We no longer value quality.

Money, wealth and power are the gods many worship.

I suppose the disappearance of Elegance is a minor tragedy compared to all of that.

But, It was part of what made us a civilized society,

and if we lose all of it,

we lose a piece of our soul.


That is a tragedy.

Down the Shore….

If you live in New Jersey or Eastern Pennsylvania,

every one ( even newscasters) refer to the beach as

“down the shore”.

It’s one of those colloquialisms every one uses and it doesn’t sound strange

until someone from out of state hears us say it .

Their reaction is always fun to watch .

W H A T?

I’ve been going “down the shore” since I was five years old.

It began in 1954.

My Grandfather took the whole family ( 10 of us)

to Atlantic City for a week, every summer.

That was  big time in the 50’s.

We stayed at a fabulous old hotel ….

Chalfonte/Haddon Hall

which was right on the Boardwalk,

near The Steel Pier.

The hotel even had a huge greenhouse which enclosed a salt water pool


 A little research revealed it was listed as

one of the top 5 resorts in the world …in the early 1900’s.

We had all the rooms on one floor facing the ocean.

In the center of the bedrooms was a huge parlor,

the kind you see in Old Victorian Mansions,

complete with Grand Piano, Old Oriental Rugs and large Palm Trees.

In the Dining Room we had our own table and the same waiters every night.

At the Beach- we had our own Cabana and people who brought food and drinks all day.


I was too young to understand how wonderful and unusual all that was,

but I was having a great time!

The Boardwalk was magical in those days.

I saw the famous horse dive off a high platform into a small tank of water.

There were world class acts at Steel Pier- like singer Bobby Darin.

There were dance parties at the hotels and on the Pier.



We swam all day in the Cold, Blue Atlantic and then, red as lobsters,

We’d rush through dinner so we could

“Hit the Boards”.

There was Mr. Peanut ( with his ever-present monacle)

greeting and waving to every one.

Fralingers…..the legendary salt water taffy store was always giving free samples.

Taylor Pork Roll had it’s own store on the Boardwalk with huge pork rolls hanging

in the window .

(Don’t even ask.)

If you don’t know what Pork Roll is…. I can’t really explain it.

It’s another New Jersey/ Pennsylvania thing!

Then there were the rides on Steel Pier.

Every day was an adventure.

I still remember those poor men who carried white freezers around their necks, walking all day in the hot sand yelling:

“Fudgy Wudgies… get your Ice Cold Fudgy Wudgies.”

They were chocolate Fudgsicles and they were THE BEST!

I’ve been going to the beach  for over 60 years.

I love each and every day I spend there-

although I never went back to Atlantic City

as an adult.

I prefer the smaller, quiet towns along the Jersey Shore,

like Ocean Grove and Spring Lake.

But I will never forget the excitement and fun of

those  family trips to “AC”.

That Atlantic City is gone forever.

But I still have all my

wonderful memories that will last the rest of my life.

Vegetarian in my Heart

I eat meat.

But I hate myself for doing it.

I think about stopping all the time.

I want to stop.

But then, I would have to learn a whole new way of cooking.

At my age, that wouldn’t be easy.

Even if I did that,

I would still have to cook meat for my carnivorous husband.

It just seems too overwhelming.

I don’t eat pork or veal any more.

In fact, my rule is:

I never eat any thing that looks like what it used to be.

No whole lobsters, or little game birds or fish with heads .

Sometimes when I eat chicken or beef, my stomach gets queasy,

or I don’t like the taste or the smell.

I assume this is my brain trying to help me get “off meat”.

But then it passes and the meat finds it’s way into my mouth.

In my heart, I am a vegetarian.

But the flesh is weak and every once in a while,

I need to experience the decadence of a juicy hamburger or steak.


But then, I pass a truck on the highway, delivering animals on their way to slaughter &

I feel physically sick.

If I had to choose an animal and watch someone kill it so I could eat it,

I would never eat meat again.

Perhaps that’s what I should do.

But, of course, I could never watch that.

Once, in Thailand,

I was at a restaurant with a huge aquarium and

the waiter wanted me to point out which fish I wanted to eat

so the chef could kill it and prepare for me.

That night I ate rice.

I didn’t eat veal for 12 years as a protest of the way they raise veal calves.

I was very proud of my

sacrifice, because veal was always one of my favorites.

Then, one night, in some great restaurant there it was on the menu:

Veal Saltimbocca.

The description of the dish was poetry.

My sacrifice had lasted long enough, hadn’t it?

Nothing had changed.

Veal calves were still being inhumanely treated.

My protest for 12 years had gone unnoticed by everyone but me.

I deserved this one little reward- didn’t I?

So, I ordered it.

I was so disgusted by my weakness, I didn’t enjoy it and couldn’t finish it.

Twelve years…. right down the drain!

So, as a failed vegetarian and ambivolent carnivore,

my newest approach is to purchase from ethical local producers,

acknowledge, with gratitude,

 the poor cow or chicken who has given it’s life

so  I may increase my self loathing & my cholesterol.

Then, I eat the meat.

I hate myself for it, but it’s the best I can do right now.

lf it’s any consolation,

my guilt prevents me from totally enjoying the meal.

So, that’s something!

Here’s a little carnivore joke:

What’s the difference between a chicken and a pig in a bacon omelette?

The chicken was involved

But the pig was committed!

My fervent hope is that someday I will stop being the chicken

and start being the pig….

100% committed


Poor Little Good Girl……..

I am sure every one is familiar with the description of

Gloria Vanderbilt as the “Poor Little Rich Girl”.

But I am almost positive you’ve never heard the story of the

“Poor Little Good Girl”.

When I began college in 1966,

at the tender age of 17,

I was, in no way, prepared for it.

I had just graduated from an “all girls” Boarding School.

I was raised Catholic.

I didn’t smoke, drink, have sex or do drugs.

 I was paralyzed with fear at the thought of not being

” A Good Girl”.

(Thank you Mom & Catholic Guilt).

Every one in my dorm was taking Birth Control Pills.

I brought Flintstone vitamins from home.

I’m sure you’re getting the idea now.

One night a couple of weeks after school started,

I met an upperclassman from a nearby college.

He invited me to a fraternity party….( my first)

I was flattered , excited  and a little scared.

He looked just like John Lennon

with his long hair and pince- nez glasses.

I liked the real John Lennon.

So, I thought: “sure,why not”?

The big day arrived.

He picked me up in a little Mercedes convertible.

I thought we were off to a good start!

We laughed a lot on the drive over and

I was almost”giddy”with thoughts of my new life,

and the prospect of all that freedom!

I was ready to rock’n roll!


We arrived at the fraternity party,

got settled and he said:

“Would you like a drink?”

I replied:” uh.. I don’t drink, but could I have a coke?

He looked incredulous and for a split second he thought I might be kidding .

He then rattled off a list of 20 different drinks he could get for me.

Anything I want….. ANYTHING!

I decline sheepishly and say I’ll stick with the coke.

Now he is both incredulous and annoyed.

At this point in time, I can see my entire dating future  may be in jeopardy.

My only hope is that I might have another chance to show him how cool I really am!

I want him to see the REAL ME!

I’m smart, really funny, witty. I have matching curtains and bedspreads in my dorm room.

(Something, I’m sure, that haunts my old roommate to this day!)

I have Great Hair…

What’s not to like?!

The only thing I did occasionally, that was even close to “cool”

was puff on a “ciggie”  in the snack bar,

even though I could not inhale.( never learned).

A few minutes passed and he disappeared.

I assume he needed a quick drink or two.

He came back into the room and approached me with a tiny bit of hope in his eyes

( or maybe it was the bourbon)

and said:

“Do you smoke”?


My last chance…..

I said: why yes.. I DO smoke!

He looked encouraged and proceeded

to ask if I would like some really good stuff from Columbia.


I looked a little confused and replied:

“Hmm, Columbian? I’ve never heard of that”.

Well, what DO you smoke?

With all the pride I could muster,

I replied: TAREYTONS!

I thought that would do it!

It did.

His face became contorted in a mask of incredulity mixed with disgust,

as though I had just made a “doody” on the hood of his  car.

In that moment,

I could see the evening and my hopes for future dating success,

 anywhere with anyone…..

were over.

Guys apparently do talk to each other

and before the end of the weekend, I would become a legend.

and… not in a good way.

Shortly after “the incident”, John Lennon returned me to my dorm,

in that cute little Mercedes convertible and

drove into the night…. never to return.

Have you ever heard people talk about

a college girl from the 60’s, with great hair-

the one

who was a virgin and didn’t smoke, drink or do drugs….

the one you should never date- under ANY CIRCUMSTANCES?


That was me!

Keep Moving!

 Everything is about timing.

It’s about knowing when to move along from something old

to something new.

So many times in life we get stuck,

 in a behavioral rut

or in a relationship that no longer works.

We cannot imagine something new in our lives,

so we stick to what is familiar;

even if it’s no longer making us happy.

So, I’m here to plant just a small seed in your mind.

Know when it’s time to move along

and just do it.

Whatever it is… a job, a relationship, a place to live, or a new hairdo.

There is always a voice inside that knows the truth.

I know this because I spent many years ignoring that voice.

Big Mistake……. HUGE mistake!

 We choose not to listen because what it says might be inconvenient or too scary.

Listen to it, act on it.

Don’t be afraid.

It’s only you telling you the truth!

Our dreams can change without us even noticing.

Then, one day we wake up and realize

we’re not even close to being on the right path.

That’s when it’s time to make a change.

In every ending there is a gift.

The gift is a new beginning,

a fresh start, a new direction,

a chance for growth and happiness.

Embrace the endings because that’s what leads to a new chapter in your life.

It’s what takes you to the next level.

Just embrace it

and move along, please!

And, oh yes………..






67 Shades of Gray


The answer to the questions

“How old am I and what is the true color of my hair?”

(under the red dye job)

This begs the question:

“When is the right time to allow your hair to be the color it really is……

if that color is GRAY?”

It’s not just about the color.

It’s a social statement.

It’s a commitment to accept where you are in life.

It’s moving to the next level ,

 letting go of the illusion of youth


embracing the realities of aging.

Am I really ready for that?

My husband is nine years younger than I am.

He has a full head of gray hair and looks better than he ever has.

I have a semi-full head of  red hair because if I didn’t dye it,

I would look like his mother.


I don’t want to look like his mother.

How do we embrace what is and find a way to celebrate it?

I’ve given myself 3 more years.

When I turn 70, I am going to re-evaluate my position

and think about going gray.

I can’t promise I’m going to do it…… ever!

But I am going to think about it.

I am going to chant the name IRIS APFEL every day

to get in touch with the defiant

“gray haired warrior”within me.


I feel young on the inside.

 I really don’t understand why my exterior isn’t cooperating with the program.

My dream is to be one of those women who goes gracefully

through every stage of life ;

still quirky, hip , wise, funny, fashionable and witty.

…growing older but still being me.

Can I be all that and be gray too?

  I want to look in the mirror and see the person I feel like on the inside.

Right now, that person has red hair.

Maybe one day I’ll wake up and have the courage to embrace

the rockin’ old lady I am…..

even with my 67 shades of gray hair!

We’ll see.

PETA…. Heaven seems to be on your side!

During her life, my mother had many fur coats.

That was fairly normal in the 50’s and 60’s.

If your husband could afford it, he bought you a Mink coat or a Fox coat

or a Raccoon or a Sheared Beaver.

When she died, I gave them all away because I didn’t want to wear them.

I already suffer from severe self-loathing because I am unable to give up eating meat!

I don’t need to compound my guilt by wearing fur!

A few years after my mother died, I had a very vivid dream about her.

I was at a party and suddenly she ( young and beautiful) walked through the door

and right across the room toward me.

Mom was wearing a full length coat

made from squares of many different kinds of animal fur.

It was a long patch-work fur coat!

I walked over to her and said: Mom, where have you been?

She looked at me as though I was the world’s biggest moron and replied:

“Well, I am dead Janice. I’ve been in heaven!

Because I could not ignore the fact she was wearing this bizarre coat,

I asked what she was wearing and why?

As if we were sharing an embarrassing secret, she leaned into me and said:

They are not very happy with me because of all the animals

that had to die to make my fur coats.

So, they made this one for me to wear until I understand that

“All life is sacred”.

Then, as if resigned to this humiliating fate, she whispered:

“It’s awfully heavy, but I suppose I had it coming”.

The dream ended.

I believe we now have empirical evidence that Heaven is against fur coats.


“Because my Mother said so”

The Garden in My Head

Every winter, as the snow falls and wind whistles through the pines and down our chimney,

I dream of Spring

and how wonderful my garden will be.

I promise myself I will leaf through all the seed catalogs

and find new varieties

of vegetables and flowers to plant.

 My copy of “The Backyard Homestead” is located

and with it, my conviction I should raise chickens

( maybe even some goats).

I get excited about the prospect of living off the grid.

Why can’t we do that?

Why not plant and harvest all our own food?

I could learn how to “can” and “pickle” things.

Couldn’t I?

How hard could that be?

I picture myself in my straw garden hat and

bluejean overalls ( even though I don’t own any)

and I am happily raking mulch in the garden.


There is a  fence around my garden and

a charming garden shed with two small chairs,

where I can sit under the trees

and write .

Beans are trellised and reaching toward the sky.

Tomato plants are heavy with juicy, red fruit.


There are oodles of plump berries for pie making..

and so many herbs in the garden,

I’ll never use them all..

This, I should mention, is all happening inside my head;

where every thing is always perfect!

The reality is : I’m too tired during the winter to make plans.

I lose the desire to do anything but eat copious amounts of carbs and watch Netflix in bed.

Some part of me fears that Spring might not come this year,

or I might not be here to see it.

But it always comes and I’m still here.

So this, once again, is my current situation.

It’s the last week of March.

I should  be raking and fertilizing.

Every thing should have been pruned by now.

I need to get rid of the leaves I ignored last Fall.

There is no fence & no charming little potting shed.

There are no plans for new gardens.

My copy of “Backyard Homestead” has disappeared


I still don’t know how to “can” or “pickle”.

A big bag of zinnia seeds has been purchased

and I intend to sow them in my new cutting garden,

if I get around to it.

Beyond that- I have no idea what I will do.

Every thing looks so beautiful in my head!

Maybe this will be the year I can take what’s in my imagination

and actually turn it into the garden of my dreams.

Wouldn’t that be wonderful?